kellyjo

Depression does not help with weight loss.  At all.  Instead of being gung-ho and ready to count calories, I find myself shoving any “comfort food” down my ever-open throat.  I have not been this low in a long, long while, and until things improve with my job I do not see any positive changes in the near future.  My goal at the moment is to maintain what I have and pray for something to finally go my way.

Woosh, tonight was my first night of pilates.  Boy, am I out of shape!  I am sore in places I did not know existed, and those that I was aware of are even more achy.  It’s a good ache, though.  An ache of progress.  I just hope I can muster up enough strength to go back on Wednesday.  I can do it!

Wow.  It’s been several months, I’ve regained all the weight I lost, and am back once again ready to change.  In my defense, after April of 2008 my life changed drastically.  On the 27th of April I received a B.A. in Psychology and have since found a job related to it.  I have been really stressed out with money, and have not been very healthy.  Stress is AWFUL for one’s body, I know, and I haven’t been eating as well or as active as I used to be.  It is difficult to pick one part of your life to improve when so much is going wrong at once. 

In happier news, I also got married in May, which has also changed the way things work in my life.  My husband and I started out walking together every evening, but then it got colder and my work schedule became erratic.  While I am on my feet a lot as a barista, I’m still not happy and not as active as I should be.

Thankfully tomorrow I start a pilates class, and have been making it a conscious goal to try to lose two pounds a week.  Last week I weighed in at a disappointing 281, but today I am back down to 278.  With an actual fitness class scheduled, and the promise of better employment hopefully in the horizon, I hope to get back on track and really improve myself this year!  

Since 2006 I have currently lost about 50 pounds.  I’ve lost 11 since January.  It’s exciting to realize how much is gone, but somewhat daunting to see how much I would like to continue to lose.  I’ve recently started really concentrating on what I eat and how many calories I’ve consumed in a day and have lost about 8 pounds in the past two weeks!  School is making it difficult to exercise as much as I’d like to, but hopefully with the weather getting warmer I can take walks on days that I don’t have time to make it to the gym.

I wish I felt different, though.  I still feel huge, and it’s kind of annoying.

I hate “fat” days.  You know, the ones where you feel you weigh a ton and are the most undesirable being on the planet?  Yea, those.  :(  Stress is a bitch.

I am currently wearing a size medium skirt that my mom bought me today.  I never thought that would happen. 

My friends make me feel huge.  They don’t mean to, but they do.  So frustrating sometimes.  :S

Wahoo!  I’ve lost 7 pounds since January 1st!  I’m now back down to the weight I was before joining Curves last August, and since I’m back to where I was at that point, there’s no turning back!  ONWARD TO SHRINKAGE!!

If you want a surefire way to lose 5 pounds in one day, get the stomach flu!  I may be five pounds lighter, but man is life miserable at the moment. 

Three pounds gone, and probably more after my period is gone!  I am now 4 pounds from being the weight I was when joining the gym–how embarrassing?  I’m eating better and exercising more regularly, so hopefully this 2-3 pounds a week thing will catch on!